OMG

ok here i am bitching again! This shit is fucking BS... Johnny is being a total prick right now. I am sooo pissed off at him , at everything. ya know my uncle is in the hospital so plans have changed in everyone's life ( well the families life ) ok well this is what is going on. We were planning for a month and a half to pick shannon up in Kentucky 2marra! Well when all this happen with my uncle things changed and my parents were going to come all the way down here where they could go see my uncle and my aunt.well my aunt said that he is getting better with my uncle and they are taking him off of some meds well lowering his dose. and lowering his dose of oxygen from the ventalater. So he is getting better so my parent swant to go back to the normal plan of meeting in Kentucky. Well johnny went and made plans to work 2marra so now i have to find a way to get a car and gas so i can go get my sister! So this is just fucking great. johnny wont get off of work to go get me a rent a car so now i dont know what the hell i am going to do. And because i was extremely tired last night from all the shit that was going on last night i didnt wake up until 1pm and then i didnt call my parents until 2-230 then that is when i found out about the plans being changed. So i called johnny imediately after i talked to my parents and he had already made his own damn plans to work. So he says well if someone would have gotten off there ass sooner then i wouldnt have made plans! ! ( talking about me ) OMG he makes me soo fucking mad. Like it is my fault that this shit happen with my uncle and that its my fault i was too upset to go to sleep at a decent hour where i could get up early, to know that the plans were being changed. I am sooooooooooooo sick and tired of this shit happening and it being my fucking fault. maybe if i had a life or something important to do besides cleaning the fucking house i would have a reason to get up early like he does and wants me to do. This just pisses my off soo bad. I cant take much more of this BS right now. I am already a damn basket case about my uncle and now johnny is picking fights with me about stupis shit. There is no reason whatso ever that he cant just work on Sunday or work all next weekend. i am going to have an emotional break down n e second i gaurentee it. emotional or mental breakdown. i just cant take this shit. This is just the perfect excuse for my sister not to come. he doesnt want her to come n e ways so this is giving him more of a reason for her not to come and that is what pisses me off the most. But its ok for his damn mama to live her 24/7/365 with out doing ne thing but causeing trouble. but my damn sister cant come stay for a month or so without it being a huge deal. This is just so damn aggravating. Cause i cant do a GD thing about it. I have no way of getting myself a damn car for the weekend for 2 reasons i am not 18 and i dont have a credit card or a checking account. UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am so annoyed right now that i am going to hit someone or something. I feel bad for the next person that calls me or comes over here cause i am going to to curse them out and then hit them in the face. i am soooooooooooo pissed off right now. Ok i am going to go and try to calm myself down or something cause i am going to loose it in like 2.5 seconds!